Heart. Pause.

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I’m taking a heart pause. Literally. A. Heart. Pause. A few weeks ago I was experiencing a slight shortness of breath while exercising . . .

A trip to my doctor . . . Hmm . . .

An EKG . . . Hmm . . .

And then a CT Scan . . . Hmm . . .

And then a Stress Test . . . Hmm . . .

And then an Angiogram . . .

And then a complete blockage in a coronary artery. And then the hospital. And then two stents.

I am home now. I am fine. Compared to so many people in the world, I am a lucky man. A blessed man. It’s humbling, of course, when a medical team saves your life. It is humbling to know (really know) that every single heartbeat is a gift of God. I knew that. (Theoretically) Now I know it.(Experientially.)

I’m in recovery mode now. My body is a little sore. I’m feeling excited and thrilled in one moment, and then the next moment I find myself inexplicable depressed and somber.

Like many of you, when it comes to daily habits, I know what I want to do, I know what I should do, and I know what I need to do, but I don’t always follow through. And so, like many before me, I am trying to reboot my life — take better care of myself, find more balance with my work life and professional life, eat better, exercise more, and through it all try to live in a way that relishes life as a gift, but which recognizes that moderation is a good thing too.

I’m not sure why I’m sharing all of this tonight. It’s Saturday night. I’m not going to church tomorrow. I feel no pressure over a sermon. But if I were preaching tomorrow, preaching tomorrow on the Sunday after Easter, it would be something like this — Life is a gift. Friends matter. Family matters. Faith matters. Live fully. Live gratefully. Be brave. Be fearless. Love others.

Take a Breath with me today. I don’t often ask this, but if you’re so inclined, say a prayer for me today. I will say a prayer for you too. I look forward to being back in the pulpit of First Congregational Church of Los Angeles on April 22. Between now and then I’ll doing some thinking and praying and reading, and if I’m lucky a little walking on the beach.

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  1. Glad to hear you are ok! I am almost a year into colon complications that have involved multiple surgeries/ chronic and I am recovering from a procedure that took place yesterday. Emotions have ranged from fear, anger, hopelessness and gratitude. The silver lining was that it was not cancer. God has helped me have a new understanding of life and gratitude that I can share with others going through tough times . Most importantly we are grateful for having you!

  2. You don’t know me, a retired UCC pastor, but I know you from the many good sharings on Take a Breath. Prayers for a complete return to strength — so that Take a Breath may bring good news and hope to many more, and that you may continue to minister to your flock near and wide. Thank you also for the good words here about self-care. We all can take them to heart, especially this 82-year-old.

  3. So glad you listened to your body and sought help! Take a breath God is walking beside you!

  4. I prayed for you and will continue to do so. I am thankful for this time of healing and refreshment for you.

  5. Sending hugs AND prayers

  6. Oh Scott! Iā€™m so pleased you listened to your body and saw the doctors. I pray for you often and will pray specifically for your complete healing. Glad your in the mend!
    Blessings
    Roxanne Penis
    UCC Member
    Fort Worth, TX

  7. I’ve always been grateful to you for being my friend and marrying us. Your in my prayers for continue healing.

  8. Our love and healing prayers attend you on your recovery!

  9. Scott, so glad you were aware of early signs. I so enjoy the lessons, like this, from “Take a Breath”. Take. A. Break and heal well. Teachers remember students and wish them well. Salem remembers you and knows your accomplishments. Be well

  10. So grateful you caught it early, and are now on the mend. Prayers for a speedy recovery.

  11. Sending happy thoughts and prayers your way Dr. Colglazier! šŸ˜Šā¤ļøšŸ™šŸ¼

  12. Thank heaven you’re okay. We’re relieved to hear that you’re on the mend. We need you. But we need to you to be well first. And the prayers have been going on for a while. Prayers of gratitude and prayers of support.

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